Paralysed by fear

Struggling out of bed
Struggling to stay awake
Being afraid to hand in the imperfect assignment
Being afraid to try
Remembering: sadness is an emotion one cannot afford
First thought: how can I eat away the feelings that eat away at me?
“You’re growing so fat”
And invisible
And forgettable
And useless

There are so many ways to kill oneself

Note: This post is part of #CuminWrites366, my year-long attempt to write a post a day. Find the rest over at

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